I am sorry.

I never say that. I believe there is a time and place for everything. I only say I am sorry if I truly mean it. I recently posted a blog that was very controversial in nature, and some may say prejudice. I want my readers to know that I love you all no matter what color you are. Last night I was very exhausted and stressed out and my mind was not in the right place to be writing. I want to clear up a few things.

First off, I have been talking to people today about this topic of labels. I know now that people aren't the ones who are labeling themselves, but more so it is the government. All throughout our school years we were forced to label ourselves by race on those stupid scantron tests. I realize now that I was being overly harsh and that my words came across in the completely wrong way. I am going to keep the post up because I am all about being honest and open and not hiding my past mistakes. I just hope that you who read the last post and were offended that you accept my deep and genuine apology. I never set out to harm anyone. I do, however, set out to stir emotions and provoke thoughts and feelings that may be buried deep within society’s crust.

Second, I am not completely white. I am a mix of a ton of different races and backgrounds. I do not consider myself to be superior to anyone. I actually in a number of cases feel very inferior to people around me. HAH! You know a secret now. I make sure nobody ever sees it. Why give their ego the pleasure? Did you forget that I am gay? Did you forget that I am in porn? I have two things going against me in the everyday mainstream society that I find myself surrounded by. The latter is my choice, but is frowned upon by a lot of people. For me to feel superior to anyone would be very risky, as someone could call me out on so much and make me feel inferior. I just skip the whole process and respect everyone and have understanding for everyone I come across as I would have them do for me.

I am 19 years old. That is not an excuse i the least bit. I have a lot to learn about life and about people. Please understand that anything I write in here is only a snapshot of my current perception. Right now, my perception has been cleared. I know that I am sort of known for speaking my mind. I will never apologize for that. What I am apologizing for now is posting irresponsibly. I usually try and do a bit more research on world and society issues before I post anything about them. I wasn't in the right frame of mind last night to write anything and look what happened. For that I do apologize. I love you all very much.

So! If you could forgive me ad accept my apology, post a smiley face in the comments section of this post. I don't want to lose my readers because of a stupid mistake. I will do whatever it takes to make you happy with me. Just let me know and I will do the best I can.